Am angry

[fearlesstemp]

at self! Dammit. Overcommitted myself tomorrow and now I have to do two things I don't want to do at all. Dammitdammitdammit. Have to skip out of work early (which makes me feel bad and immoral, forcing me to realize that yes, I do have a work ethic buried somewhere in me) to go on a hike with a bunch of kids for like three hours. I am not the hiking kind. And I have to drive to remote hiking spot. Which I don't want to do. President of club wouldn't let me off the hook, despite all my attempts to be freed up, the fact that I was an hour late for work tonight because of club meeting, and the fact that she has another driver AND more than enough chaperones. Dammit! I can't just cancel though because (as usual) there would be guilt.

Am angry. Because it's All! My! Fault!

Can't say no. It's an issue, and must be dealt with. Pronto. Fear I will have bad day because I will resent having to do what I have to do, which basically kills any fun potential. Must create better mood despite bitterness! Must show shining, friendly, happy-to-be-hiking face to children! Must!

Off to watch a flick.

Comments

Awwww!

[kaelie.livejournal.com]

What a way to start off the three day weekend! I'm sorry to hear about the impending hiking hell - hope it turns out better than you expected and that the rest of your weekend makes up for it!

And get someone to take a picture of your shining friendly happy hiking face, so you can share.
;)

Kaelie