fearlesstemp: (cary kate net)
I can't believe it's been eight days and I haven't tortured you all with tales from my father's Mensa Art Show. To put it simply: It was an experience. I spent an hour and forty-five minutes of my life I'll never get back sitting with an old man who told me we were like the Russian Empire, being brought down by wine, women, and song. Then he told me about how terrible lawyers are, and how you can get sued for a hangnail. He caught himself a second later and said, "Not your father, of course. Or your grandfather."

"Right," I said, and then my Hardass Tough Girl melted away in the face of feeling like I was being rude to an old man. "But some of the commercials for lawyers are terrible."

"Awful!" he said, and then went on about a bunch of other things I can't really remember because I spent the whole time thinking about how much my father owed me, and that this would most definitely cancel out any guilt I feel over moving home and living with them rent-free the last couple of years.

During the art show I wandered around eating lots of cheese and crackers and having awkward, occasionally overly-personal conversations with people I'd just met. One woman soothed me into a false sense of security by starting a typical conversation about our shared alma mater, and then somehow segued into stories about her childhood in a Catholic orphanage and how her father tried to kill her mother three times but it wasn't really his fault.

"He was insane," she said. "There was something wrong with his brain. He couldn't help it."

I probably said something in response but I can't think of it now, because it just doesn't seem like there's anything a person could say to that. But I must have said something, because I wouldn't have been so rude to just run back into the kitchen for more Werther's Originals without saying anything. Though maybe I did just that.

Most of the other people were charmingly eccentric, a bit like my father. He was in his element. I felt weird because people kept asking me which artwork was mine and all I could do was point at my father's family portrait of me, my brother, and my mother at dinner and say, "That's me on the right. It's my father's painting, I'm just here for moral support."

The most important thing I learned was never to choose shoes for a six-hour outing based on the idea that you'll "probably" get to sit down a lot. I got compliments on my new black heels, but my feet were killing me by the end.

That was the Saturday of last weekend. The Saturday of this weekend was spent baby-sitting Emma, who is now seven years old, which just does not seem possible. She's still high-energy and precocious, but it looks better on a seven-year-old than it did on a three-year-old, probably because I can better communicate my empty threats to her.

"Well, if you're going to do throw ice at the dog, then I guess we're just going to have to eat at the kitchen table!" What a threat. I let her eat in the living room when I babysit because I'm Just That Strict. She threw ice at the dog a couple times more and we still ended up sitting at the coffee table in the living room, eating chicken nuggets and macaroni and cheese, watching a Scooby Doo episode with a vampire.

At one point I kind of jumped at something that happened on screen (this is why I can't go to horror movies; Scooby Doo episodes startle me), and Emma looked at me across the table very seriously and said, "It's okay, it's not a *real* vampire."

"Like you?" I asked. She had tried on her Halloween costume while I was boiling the water for the macaroni, and emerged from the bathroom in a black cape and plastic fangs. She had warned me from the bathroom a few times that it was going to be a little scary, but that it would be okay. I yelped and clutched the wooden spoon I was using for the macaroni to my chest, and she took the teeth out of her mouth and had me pick her up so that I could see it was just Emma.

"Like me," she said.

I gave her a bath and brushed her hair while she read from a book to me, and then we did math flashcards before I put her to bed. She still asked me to lie down next to her and sing Old MacDonald. Every time I go there I think she won't ask, but every time she still does. I'll probably cry the first time she doesn't.

She's a sweet kid. When I got to her house, she was playing out back with Andrew, the boy next door who my aunt doesn't really like. She thinks he's mean. They were pulling an oversized wagon full of toys around the yard and after I said I was going to go inside to see her mother, Emma pulled out this plastic laptop toy and said she was going to type my name to see what it means.

I was halfway across the lawn when I heard Andrew say, "Her name means fat and ugly!"

I kept walking like I hadn't heard, and then just as I was going to go into the house, I heard Emma yell, "Jessie, your name means beautiful!"

"Thanks, Em!" I yelled back, and then I went inside.
fearlesstemp: (cary kate net)
Today's scorecard: My skirt fits funny and I have two runs in my stockings, both of them above the hem of the skirt right now, but they're moving fast. I had to scoot over to Rite Aid on my lunch hour to buy another pair, which I'm going to change into the second one of the runs sneaks by the hem.

The question of the skirt's funny fit is one I tried to solve in the bathroom earlier today by taking off my slip and then putting it on again to see if it was better with or without. I did this twice while standing in front of the bathroom mirror before realizing that anyone could open the door at any moment and see me standing there with my skirt hiked up, shimmying into the slip, since this was a three-stalled office bathroom and not my own little one-seater at home. I then became convinced that someone was going to burst in Right That Moment and hid behind where the door would open to fix my skirt, which was a ridiculous solution because (a) if someone opened the door at all, they would have nailed me and I would have had to explain why I was hiding in the corner of the bathroom, and (b) there was a private little stall just a few feet further away in the opposite direction.

Anyway. I am a mystery even to myself.

The verdict on the slip thing: Doesn't make much difference. The problem is my hip-to-waist ratio, which makes almost all not-completely-A-Line skirts problematic. Most that fit on my hips are too big on my waist and then fall down and sit funny. Note: The problem is less that I have a narrow waist (ha! Almost) but that I have far from narrow hips.

Also: I feel like my octogenarian Latin teacher from high school whenever I discuss wearing a slip, since I'm pretty sure I'm the only person under sixty who wears them. Mrs. R. had a tendency to put on the wrong slip in the morning and spend the whole day with three inches of the slip hanging below the hem of her skirt. Occasionally she'd comb her hair in the morning with one of those black thin barber's combs, stop halfway through with the comb in her hair, and then forget about it, only to discover it sticking out of the back of her hair halfway through her third class of the day.

I sometimes think Mrs. R. and I are spiritual sisters.

I got an invite to an alumni luncheon thing this year, which is featuring as its centerpiece yet another ceremonial award for Mrs. R. She got one last year and I'm pretty sure she got one the year before; she graduated from my high school sometime around 1930 and had been teaching for a few years when my grandmother had her in high school – and my grandmother was the class of 1947. She sticks around because she is from a wealthy family and is such a big financial supporter of the school that they're afraid to let her go, even though she's been having senior moments since the mid-eighties. I think they keep giving her these luncheons hoping that eventually, in one of her acceptance speeches, she'll announce her retirement, but no luck yet.

She was a character. I was one of four students in her Latin Culture and Vocabulary class, which was pretty much a joke. The night before the final exam she called each of us with mysterious messages like, "Think about Sparta...and Athens...and how they're different..." which then turned out to be the major questions on the exam. I think she was afraid that we were all going to fail because we'd all been so spacey and bored for the entire duration of the class. It was a legitimate fear; I was taking the class pass/fail, I think, since I was a senior approaching graduation with my college acceptance letters under my belt. I knew I would squeak by with a pass even though I'd been asleep for half the course both because I was a good test-taker and, also, I had a rep in the school as a Smart Kid, which, as everyone knows, cuts you a bit of slack at the end of your high school career.

She taught public speaking as well, and an odd assortment of other classes. Sometimes she would come in and spend the entire period talking about the dry cleaner down her street when she was growing up, and other times she'd tell us about the proper pronunciation of "often" (the t is silent) and the value of enunciation. One day she came in and taught me one of the most important things I learned in high school: what it really means to be a classy individual. She asked us what we thought it meant to be a classy individual, and we sat there, all fifteen and clueless, and said stuff about Audrey Hepburn and Jackie O. and expensive silverware. None of us had the right answer. Class, she told us, is not a set of clothes or good lighting; it's a way of treating people with respect and kindness. It's making your first priority, in any given situation, that the other person is feeling comfortable. The classiest person at a dinner party isn't the one with the best dress who knows the right way to use the flatware; the classiest person at a dinner party is the one who sees someone nervously pick up the wrong fork for the salad, and picks that one up herself.

Anyone can do that, she said, in any situation. That's the way you should be.

My cousin Mike is a classy guy. I have a sweet story about him that I'm going to share here, even though it would embarrass him if he found it. Even though it may come off as kind of corny. It made me smile and so I'm sharing it.

mike and dan )
fearlesstemp: (cary kate net)
Did I mention in my last entry that I only got ninety minutes of sleep last night? Because I did. I have never longed so much for the below-desk cubby George created on that episode of Seinfeld.

Seinfeldish Epiphany of the Month: If George Costanza and Cosmo Kramer mated, the result would be my father. There are, like, two people reading this who will fully appreciate the accuracy of this description. As for the rest: now you have a vague idea of what you'd experience if you ever met my father.

Speaking of paternal figures: The Grampster.

He continues to kick it bitter in the nursing home, which I understand. It's a sucky place to visit, let alone stay, and he and I have taken to having these bizarre inspirational-sports-movie-esque conversations, where I feel like some old coach telling this beat up former champ that he can do it again, really he can. I find myself saying things like, "You have to believe in yourself! That's the first step!"

I annoy myself in these conversations. I'm surprised he still speaks to me.

Continued Amazing Cluelessness of My Family: My grandfather can't use the bathroom by himself, or stand on his own, or do much of anything. He fired one of his aides before he had his surgery and nothing has been done to replace her or prepare the remaining aides to handle his new condition.

Naturally two of my aunts want to take him home! To his house, not theirs.

"He tells me that they never do rehab with him anyway," Aunt 1 says.

"And wouldn't it be a nice birthday treat to come home?" Aunt 2 says.

"Oh my God, are you insane?" says my little branch of the family tree.

First: He does get rehab (my father has witnessed it). The thing is, he either doesn't remember that it happens or he does remember and is lying about it to my aunts. He's definitely crafty enough to lie.

Second: It would be nice, but he's in no condition!

Anyway, all this led up to me overhearing the following conversation between my father and my uncle Jim, who is married to my father's sister Christine.

Dad: Hey Jim, how's it going? Is Christine there? Oh. Okay. Just give her this message: [tone completely changes from Jovial Jim to Angy Attorney] The old man cannot go home. It would be a death sentence. [tone returns to Jovial Jim] Good talking to you! Bye.

Tonight I think I'm going to head over to the nursing home and visit. Perhaps we'll have a replay of Friday evening's dinner.

[Grandpa, Mary, and Aram sit together at a table waiting for their dinner. Aram's family and I stand around the table, chatting.]

Grandpa: Have you met my granddaughter? This is Jessica.

Self: [Waves a hand] Hi!

Everyone: Hello!

Mary: I'm cold.

Grandpa: You need a sweater! Jessica, get her a sweater.

Self: Mary, do you want one? I could run to your room if you wanted?

Mary: No, dear, I'm fine.

Self: Okay.

[Two minute pause.]

Grandpa: Have you met my granddaughter? This is Jessica.

Self: [Waves a bit more tentatively.] Hi!

Everyone: Hello!

Mary: I'm cold.

Grandpa: You need a sweater! Jessica --

Self: I already asked, but --

Grandpa: She needs a sweater!

Self: All right, all right. Mary, would you like me to go to your --

Mary: No, dear, that's fine.

Self: Okay. Just let me know.

[Two minutes of something else]

Grandpa: Have you met my granddaughter Jessica?

Anyway. Good times! It's 5PM, time for me to blow outta here.
fearlesstemp: (working girl)
Subtitled: Further Adventures of Your Fearless Temp

I went to Cape Cod this past weekend, and while I was away my temp agency left two frantic messages on my cell phone. Because I am cruel, I did not return their calls until I got back home, even they were being all nice and complimentary in their franticness, saying things like, "You are our top choice for this position! They asked for our top choice, and we said you!"

(Nevermind the fact that the only reason they'd be frantic would be because the job would be on short notice, which sounds like a situation where the original person assigned backed out. Clearly I am not your first choice! But anyway.)

I listened to their messages and didn't call them back. I felt so powerfully mean, it was kind of scary. Maybe I could be a totalitarian despot after all.

But I had a reason for being mean! As far as my temp agency knows, when I go away, I am unreachable. I like to maintain that myth, that illusion. I like to act like when I go away, maybe I'm going to Paris, or jet-setting to London, out of reach of any phone call, when I'm really probably:(a) sitting in my bedroom feeling lame watching soap operas; (b) on some quick vacation with my parents; or (c) driving three hours to Ithaca to sit in my best friend's living room and watch hours and hours of PBS miniseries or Firefly episodes, obsessively checking my voicemail every half hour.

The power trip completely worked. By the time I called them back they were so relieved to hear from me that they were complimenting me left and right and giving me two dollars more an hour than I've gotten before for such a job. Maybe it's the company raising its rates, maybe it's the temp agency. I like to think it's just how attractive I am as a candidate.

(It's totally not that.)

Anyway, new assignment! I spoke to them yesterday about it and told them I'd start tomorrow. They asked if I could pick up the parking pass today, and I said I could, but that I had a very important appointment in the morning (with sleep), but the afternoon would be fine. I could probably be there by two. They called back and said anytime after two would be fine. Great, I said. Great, they said.

Anytime after two! This is important!

I spent most of this morning sleeping and tooling around on the internet, and then I had to watch All My Children while eating breakfast (popcorn), and then I got a phone call giving me bad news I won't go into here, which of course meant I had to sit around and mope for a bit. I finally got my shit together and got out the door at 3PM, which I thought was fine, because it was after two! And they had said anytime after two!

I was getting off the exit ramp when my cell phone rang. I proceeded to have the following conversation while (a) trying to hide the cell phone so as to avoid being busted by police, (b) trying to steer and shift gears with only one hand, and (c) figure where the hell I was going.

Fearless Temp: Um -- ack! – yes! Hello?

AP: This is Laurel from your Temp Agency. Kathleen at All Irish Law Firm just called and said you missed your 2PM appointment?

FT: What? No! I thought it was anytime after 2!

AP: Yes, well...they thought it was 2PM. They just called looking for you.

FT: But! No! I mean, I'm almost there! I'm hurrying! I'm really sorry, but I thought it was anytime after 2! They said anytime after 2!

AP: The notes here say 2PM.

FT: I'm almost there!

AP: Okay, I'll call them.

This was horrifying. Horrifying! It's true that I am almost always late, but there are exceptions! I am never late for job interviews, first days at jobs, and haircuts. I like to give people the illusion of punctuality, and so I am NEVER late when I'm first meeting someone. Okay, so I am, sometimes, but I am always VERY UPSET and I am NEVER late to the tune of ninety minutes!

I careened through the city streets as fast as I could and found a spot right in front of the building which did not, I was sure to check, have any kind of parking restrictions. I had to spend five minutes crawling around my car because I parked next to a meter, only to realize that the meter still had twenty-five minutes on it when I went to put my quarter in. I ran across the street and started walking down the sidewalk and ended up a couple of feet behind a tall black man who was walking with a limp and the assistance of this big metal cane.

Here's the thing: I tend to overthink, well, everything. I am totally one of those people who offends people by attempting not to offend them: in this situation, I was walking behind him, and I really wanted to run around him to the front door to the building, but it somehow felt rude to me to scoot in front of and around this guy who was limping along. And so I ended up walking slowly a few feet behind him, kind of in his blind spot if we were cars, debating whether I could cut in front of him or not.

I must have been shooting him looks while I was doing this, because he suddenly turned around and said, "What, are you afraid I'm going to attack you or something?"

Awkwardness! Extreme awkwardness! I kind of scooted around him then, and muttered something like, "Ha! No! I'm just – going to go in the building here now, because that's where I'm supposed to be, not because I'm trying to get away from you – really! You can look at this note in my hand with the address on it! You weren't making me nervous! I wasn't being racist, really! I was just being culturally insensitive of your handicap! I mean, disability! I mean, differently abled leg or left side or whatever it is! Or something! I like your cane! Bye!"

Maybe I didn't say all that. I did hate myself, though, for being such a socially awkward dunce, for a good three minutes, or however long it took the elevator to reach the ground floor and pick me up. I stood there and decided that from that point on I was going to stop overthinking things like this, I just needed to treat people kindly the same way I would want to be treated, and should just chill out in general! Relax!

And then the elevator doors opened. I walked forward boldly, with purspose, because I was very late! And very nearly ran over the tiny, snappily-dressed man who was walking out of the elevator towards me. He wore a sharp shirt and tie and came up to my knee and I completely didn't see him at first.

"Oh, uh, sorry! Hi!" I said, scooting aside.

He waved vaguely at me and charged out of the elevator towards the lobby doors. I spent the entire elevator ride working up a nice bout of self-loathing via the following internal dialogue:

Self 1: Oh my God. Did I hurt his feelings? I didn't see him! But that's probably what would really hurt his feelings! Oh God! I'm so awful and mean!

Self 2: Shut up, you freak!

Self 1: Freak isn't a nice word to use, Self 1! Especially considering who – not that I'd ever use it in relation to him, even though he was missing one hand in addition to his, you know. Different size. I wonder how he tied his tie?

Self 2: It probably was a clip on or something.

Self 1: Probably. Should I not be thinking about how he's missing one hand and feeling bad for him because he might not have a real tie, or might have a hard time tying a real tie? Is that, like, disrespecting him through pity, or --

Self 2: STOP thinking about this!

Self 1: Okay.

Self 2: Good.

[Three second pause]

Self 1: I can't believe that guy thought I thought he was going to attack me. It's because I was treating him weird because of his limp, right? Or maybe there was some latent racism in there too. Either option is just --

Self 2: See? SEE? You're doing it again! Stop it!

Self 1: Okay! I won't think about it.

Self 2: Good.

[Three second pause]

Self 1: But – I can't believe I'm late for this stupid appointment. I shouldn't have watched All My--

Self 2: Oh my God, you are so annoying and lame!

Self 1: See? I knew I sucked!

Self 2: You totally suck.

Selves 1 and 2: [Aggressive loathing]

The good thing was that the people at the law firm were actually very nice and understanding, and believed me when I told them that I hadn't been aware it was a set appointment. She said ominous things about giving me more to do if I showed that I could handle it: I am now faced with the task of skillfully underperforming so as not to be assigned too many tasks. I think I'm up to the challenge.
fearlesstemp: (strictly ballroom)
My grandfather had surgery to have a shunt put in a couple of weeks ago. It's kind of freaky because it's so visible -- you can see the tube under his skin going up his neck and the side of his head behind his ear, until finally it disappears at the top of his skull. When I went to see him in the hospital last week, I gave him one of those strappy-string-things for your glasses, so you can wear them around your neck. I attached it to his glasses and then put it around his neck. He was very happy with it.

For about ten minutes. Then he reached up to scratch his ear and felt the string, and this look of absolute horror came over his face. "That's not supposed to be there!" he said. "The shunt is coming out! It's out!"

It scared him half to death. I had to jump up and say, "No! It's okay! The shunt's still there!" and pull his glasses away so he could see the string.

I give excellent gifts.

Anyway, so he's all shunt-tastic now. Every time I go to see him it takes all of my self possession not to shudder at the sight of the tube under his skin.

Other things I have to make sure not to shudder at: The phlegm-filled Kleenexes he hands me to throw out after he finishes coughing; the smell of the hospital; the sight of the food they're giving him.

So far I'm mostly shudder-free.

He stayed in the hospital far longer than he had to because they couldn't find him a bed in a local nursing home/rehab facility. This is because the rehab facilities and nursing homes don't permit coed rehabbing, and there were no male beds in the area for about a week. We were about to put him in a wig and a dress Bosom Buddies-style when they finally found one, at a nice, new facility.

I went to see him there today )
fearlesstemp: (working girl)
How can Groundhog Day only get two and a half stars? I checked the info-on-demand thing on my aunt's digital cable while I was watching the movie, and that's what the info-on-demand Gods had given it. How is that possible? How?

It's one of the greatest movies ever! At least I think so. And does anything matter but what I, personally, think? An emphatic "No!" is the correct answer to that question.

(I say this all in good fun, of course; other things matter too. Can't think of any right now, but that's just the kind of mood I'm in. I'm sure I'll think of something tomorrow.)

It was very necessary that I saw this movie tonight, since I was feeling all torn up inside after finishing The Poisonwood Bible today. Groundhog Day and The Poisonwood Bible both made me cry today, but they were different kinds of crying, and it's good that Groundhog Day came second and at the tail end of the day. I loved The Poisonwood Bible and everything, but I've gotta tell you, and I don't think I'm spoiling those who haven't read it yet – a book about missionaries and postcolonial Africa? Not going to be happy go lucky!

Other notes: House- and pet-sitting continues on. Sprout the kitty woke me up several times before my alarm this morning. It is a testament to my animal-loving nature that I did not maim, kill, or bear any ill-will towards him, since waking up before my designated wake-up time is one of my least favorite things to do. Especially on a Saturday, when having an alarm set at all seems cruel. But I had to be up to let the dog out, and so I had to set an alarm; I've been known to sleep for thirteen hours at a time after a long week, and this week was definitely a long one, what with smelly attorneys and dogs flipping out and my grandfather having surgery (he's doing okay now) and my car being towed (details below). Leaving the dog in the house for thirteen hours could only lead to messes I would have to clean up.

When my cats want to wake me up, they usually sit on my head. I get used to that after a minute and generally go right back to sleep, but Sprout was more determined and also more polite. Sprout sat quietly next to me, and patted me on the cheek with his paw until I woke up, blearily waved my hand in the general direction of his head in an attempt to pet him, and then rolled over. Two minutes later, just as I was drifting off, he'd do it again: Sit there, stare at me, and pat pat pat until I opened up my eyes.

I did this four or five times and then finally just scooped him up in my arms and put him under the covers with me, giving him a big old hug. This freaked him out, as I knew it would (cats only like so much personal attention), and he promptly stalked away to the foot of the bed, where he slept at a dignified distance until I woke up for good two hours later.

Frankie the dog continues to be the height of adorableness, even if he did tear through the contents of my bag tonight. I, being the super-observant dogsitter I am, did not notice until he plopped down three feet in front of me and started chewing on my bottle of ibuprofen. Thank God he didn't get it open or break the bottle. All I ask of this trip is that I don't kill the pets or break a major appliance.


Note: Bringing Up Baby is on now and the info-on-demand people have given it only three and a half stars, which is also sheer madness, because if there ever was a four-star comedy, this would be it. Oh, it's the great phone conversation about the leopard! Everyone should see this movie if only for this scene, and also the part in the jail when Katharine Hepburn pretends to be a gun moll, and also the part where Cary Grant wears a women's robe and jumps up saying, "Because I just went gay all of a sudden!"

Okay, you should just see the whole thing. "There are only two things I have to do today: Finish my brontosaurus and get married at three o'clock."

How can you not love a movie with that line? And this exchange, which I think I've quoted before:

[David discovers the leopard in Susan's bathroom.]
David: Susan, you have to get out of this apartment!
Susan: I can't, I have a lease.

Sheer greatness.

Yesterday I got out of work at 4:15. I was so excited I almost danced out of the office, and then down the street, around the corner and down three blocks more, when I stopped where I'd left my car that morning.

It wasn't there.

and so begins the towing experience )
fearlesstemp: (superjoe)
So I randomly joined Greenpeace. Or am I a patron? Whatever you call a person who donates $15 a month, that's what I am! Completely accidental and likely short-term, as I'm both easily convinced and unwilling to give up money that could be better spent on trashy magazines. I mean, it's not that I don't like the environment -- honest, I do! I recycle! -- it's just that I'm not so zealously committed. The Greenpeace girl who got me to sign up yesterday was telling me stories while I was filling in my little form, saying things like, "We have tremendously committed members! We have people jumping in front of harpoons being shot at whales! People chaining themselves to trees! People risking their lives for the environment!" And while I'm sure I was supposed to be moved and impressed at their gusto, all I could think was, "Wow, that's...a little much."

But still I signed up! Because she was so earnest and eager and I'm not sure how many people from my little struggling home city would be signing up. Though come to think of it, she might have gotten a few, since the city is currently experiencing a sort of yippie revival, complete with lots of antique stores and specialty shops, all of which was on display yesterday at the (possibly first) River Arts Festival. It was very fun, had live music, overpriced jewelry, and kettle corn, the three requirements of any kind of street festival around here (and possibly anywhere). And, also, the socially motivated people with clipboards. They are always a staple.

But anyway, I signed up! And feel like a fraud. Oh well.

Post-Greenpeace, I was walking along with my bud Anna when I saw this guy trying on this huge, gaudy sombrero. I thought to myself, "Now that's something my Dad would do," and then, sure enough, Anna said, "Hey, I know you!"

Yes, it was my Dad! In a gaudy sombrero, which he requested that I buy for him for Father's Day. I was just about to hand the money over to the dealer when my mother rushed over and started slapping my hand away, all, "You can't! You CANNOT buy this for him! He will WEAR IT! He will wear it OUT! Also, it probably has bugs!"

My mom is convinced everything secondhand has bugs.

I nodded and promised not to and then promptly skulked around the festival with Anna for a bit, losing my parents, so that I could go back and buy it for him without my mother the watchdog interfering. I had a long verbal debate over the purchase (consisting, basically, of me repeating the phrase, "My mom will KILL me" over and over), and then finally made it. I bought the sombrero and walked all around downtown with it hanging down my back because it was (as all hats are) too small for my big head. Fun fact: sombreros worn on a person's back with the string across the throat? Not so fun! First of all, it kind of feels like you're being strangled, and second of all, people talk to you about the sombrero. One lady asked me how much I paid for it and, when I told her, clearly communicated through the pause before "...that's not so bad" that I was ROBBED. Which I already knew. Aren't you supposed to barter with these vendors? I can't! I'm a child of suburbia, of the shopping mall, of the bar code prices! I got five bucks knocked off by the vendor without me asking for it, and that's as far as I could go.

Anyway, finally made it back to the car without being strangled by sombrero or mocked too harshly by fellow citizens (but vaguely terrified all the while that bugs from the sombrero were burrowing into my sweatshirt), only to arrive home later that evening and discover a sombrero sitting on the dining room table. A different sombrero. An additional sombrero.

My mother saw me looking at it and said, "You got one too, didn't you? I told you not to! I told your father not to buy this one because you were going to get the first one! NO ONE LISTENS TO ME!"

Now there are two huge, gaudy sombreros in this Irish-American household. We took pictures of each of us wearing them in the backyard tonight. Am positive neighbors again think we are insane. They are, of course, not wrong.

In other news: I'm sure you are all aware that the New York Mets swept Detroit this weekend, right? GO METS!!! WOOOO!!!! These moments are few and far between and must be SAVORED!
fearlesstemp: (working girl)
How dedicated an employee am I? So dedicated that I devoted a good chunk of my lunch hour to maintaining the corporate dress code.

How do these stories always start? Ah yes: I was running late. I am always running late. This morning was particularly bad, though; six minutes before the designated time I should leave (if I'm going to be on time -- almost never happens) I found myself standing in my bedroom in my bra and underwear, hair soaking wet, one leg of pantyhose pulled up. At this point I realized I had a hole in the upper-thigh portion of said stocking (but only one teeny run taking off from it). I also realized that I had no time to find another pair, so I just grabbed the nearest bottle of nail polish (Mauvelicious, the color currently chipping its way off of my toenails) and slathered a bit of it beneath the hole and pulled the other leg up, all the while cursing the pantyhose gods.

All was well for about an hour and a half. Then, just as I was trying to debate the relative merits of croissaint vs. apple pastry (there was a meeting downstairs and they ordered too much food), I noticed the first tell-tale run, and by lunch, I had a strip of bare skin showing on my right leg. Very fashionable.

My initial solution was to just take the stockings off and walk aware with bare legs, corporate regulations be damned! This plan was hampered by the following:

(1) My legs' pigment currently best resembles that of a fresh ream of copy paper;

(2) Aforementioned pigment provides a nice backdrop for anything dark like, say, my leg hair (I envy fair-haired people who can get away with skipping a few days shaving their legs because no one notices! I get a five o'clock shadow all over within a day or two. Okay, maybe not that bad.); and

(3) Bare feet in the shoes I'm wearing today make a farty noise when I walk.

And so I went to the grocery store! And am again compliant with the dress code.

In other news: I have been doing crazy things at work the last three days, things that just beg for a rambly LJ entry, but I think these are crazy confidential things! Dammit! Maybe next week, when it will no longer matter.

And now, I collate.
fearlesstemp: (bucky)
All I write about in this LJ lately is career angst and my wacky grandfather. This entry is about the latter:

grandpa anecdote #1, in which i discuss sunday dinner )

grandpa anecdote #2, in which i discuss the anti-abortionmobile )
fearlesstemp: (working girl)
Why do workplace restrooms always have the most horrendous lighting known to man? Every time I use one I'm tempted to just stay in there all day to spare the rest of the world the sight of my unkempt eyebrows and Magnum P.I. 'stache.

All of this is a long way of saying: Get thee to a phone to make an eyebrow waxing appointment, Jessica! And break out the Jolen's while you're on hold.

Ah, the plight of the pasty Irishwoman with super-dark hair. I know, it is so tragic. Someone should write an epic poem.

Yesterday I had an appointment to have my eyes checked. I go to these checkups infrequently enough that I forget just how horrific the experience is, which is good, because if I remembered I would never, ever go. This appointment was particularly unfun, since it was an appointment that was supposed to happen last week. I had to cancel after dragging my ass over to said eye appointment through rush-hour traffic because I somehow failed to realize that one needs to bring one's contact lenses to one's contact lens prescription check up. Glasses will not do. What was most disturbing about this was that immediately after realizing my mistake, I had a second, even more embarrassing realization that I had done the exact same thing two years ago.

I also had this awesome conversation with the receptionist lady, who was very nice in the face of my flakiness.

Receptionist Lady: So what kind of contacts do you wear?

Idiot Self: Two-week disposables.

RL: Right, okay, and what brand?

IS: Um….

RL: The name on the box?

IS: I was supposed to bring that box, right?

RL: Yeah, you kinda were.

IS: Oh. Sorry. Let's see…it's a white box? With…blue lettering?

RL: Hmm. And how long have you been wearing this brand?

IS: Hm. On and off? Twelve years.

That was fun. I then made second appointment for yesterday at 4:30, which meant I had to leave an hour early for work. I somehow managed to (a) completely forget to tell the office about this in the week between making the appointment and the actual appointment, and (b) oversleep so heinously that I ended up arriving to work almost twenty minutes late in spite of resorting to hair-drying-via-commuting-with-window-open method. So I had to go into work, apologize for being late, hand over last week's timecard (with two noted late arrivals) to be signed, and, while waiting for the timecard to be signed, inform them that I had to leave work early. This was also awesome.

As I continue to write this up, I kind of can't believe I don't do myself more damage in everyday life. To loosely quote Chandler's comment to Joey on Friends: How do I not fall down more? To this I say: I fall down quite regularly (the other day I came thisclose to face-planting on the stairs while racing up to the second floor to get something extremely vital and important – I think it was my comb. I caught myself on my hands at the last moment so I ended up just looking like I was doing some warped 45-degree pushup on the stairs), and am just lucky I don't injure myself more.

I also managed to reschedule my eye appointment for the only day this week that had something else going on – my very first golf lesson! My bud Jo and I are taking this four-week Golf for Dummies course, which started last night at seven, giving me only 2.5 hours between eye appointment and my arrival at the course's pro shop a half hour away. This is theoretically plenty of time, allowing me to get from one place to the other with a comfortable cushion of 30 minutes or so that I could spend grabbing something to eat on the way.

This is true, it was plenty of time for the actual journey. What it was not plenty of time for? My pupils – for 2.5 hours is definitely not enough time for those evil, evil eye- dilating eyedrops to wear off. And after my eyes being poked at and assaulted with drops and stressed out by demanding tests ("Lens 1 or 2? 1 or 2?? 1 OR 2?!?!"/"I DON'T KNOW!"), I couldn't even think of putting my contacts back in. And my glasses are fine (I can actually see a bit better with them), but! I do not have prescription sunglasses!

Which is how I ended up driving all over creation last night, blasting Philadelphia Freedom as loud as my little station wagon could, wearing two pairs of glasses, sunglasses over regular-prescription. Awesome, awesome look, especially since it allowed me to mime that great moment in Airplane with William Stack when I stopped at a light and realized Jo was in the car behind me. You know, the whole "My God" dramatic sunglasses-removal to reveal another pair sitting underneath? It was great, except for the fact that Jo had no idea what I was doing. It was fun for me, at least.

Posting without spell-checking or editing at all because lunch order I here! Pardon any and all lameness re: grammar, spelling, content. This is actually a warning that should be attached to all of my entries.
fearlesstemp: (fred and ginger pick self up)
I haven't done laundry in an age, which makes the morning interesting. Today I was running around the house in a towel post-shower on a desperate underwear hunt (pair found at the bottom of the clean laundry basket next to the dryer, thank goodness) when I realized the answering machine was blinking. Played the message while looking for socks (wanted to wear sandals, since it is so nice out, but yesterday received an e-mail at work saying that bare legs aren't okay until after Memorial Day – am confused as to what that says about bare feet. If one is wearing pants, can one wear sandals without stockings? It seems such a pain to wear stockings with pants and, also, I just hate the look of stockings with sandals. Wonder if I can get past this), and found two messages from aunts C. and B. about grandfather. Aide very sick with stomach virus, desperately need someone to go over and give him breakfast, blah blah blah.

Parental units unavailable, Mom already left for work and Dad preparing for colonoscopy. He initiated the following conversation as I was getting ready to go over to grandfather's house to meet my aunt, after calling work to let them know I would be late.

"If I don't see you again," he said to me from the top of the stairs, "I just want you to know, you have been a perfect daughter."

"Thanks, Dad, that's sweet," I said. "But you're going to be fine!"

"And also, remind your mother that I want you to hand out ten dollars to everyone who comes to my wake and funeral."

"Will do," I said, and ran out the door.

Raced over to grandfather's house, where I was meeting Aunt B., who had, when I returned her call, revealed that she'd burst into tears in the middle of the office in front of people right before I called and thusly had to get out of there, but wanted company.

"I just got my period," she explained when she arrived at my grandfather's house.

"That'll do it," I said.

We walked into the house to find my grandfather already up and around, motoring from the bathroom to the kitchen, his two favorite haunts.

"Hello!" he said. "What a nice surprise."

"You're up," my aunt said. "How long have you been awake?"

"Hmm, let's see," he said, leaning on his walker, pretending to ponder. "I fed the chickens at 6:30, and then – come on, how the hell do I know when I got up?"

"Right," I said. "That's the right answer."

My aunt helped him get dressed ("I'm in my ballet outfit," he said of his undershirt and sweatpants.) and I made him his delicious breakfast of oatmeal and hot chocolate, which my aunt and I then watched him slowly make his way through over the next half hour. Topics of discussion during this period: Flowers outside, article in paper featuring acquaintance of grandfather, my job. It may not seem like much but since my grandfather's mental slate tends to clear out every ten minutes or so, each topic got covered two or three times in our time there.

Aunt and grandfather continued in their remarkable faith in my future. "You're such a great role model," my aunt said, suggesting I look into teaching possibilities at a local private school.

"Yes, definitely," I said, waving my hand in a majestic way. "I could show them how to become a directionless twenty-something living with her parents."

"Don't put yourself down," my aunt said, and I instantly felt bad.

"I was kidding," I said, "I'm fine."

And I am. It's a nice spring day, my grandfather was in good spirits and eating well; when I got to work today, an hour late, I found out the stuff I'd done for the event on Tuesday worked out great. Things feel possible, even if I am wearing unsightly white socks and clunky black shoes instead of cute sandals.
fearlesstemp: (superjoe)
As you may recall from the awkward Sunday night conversation, my grandfather has been having some trouble lately getting out of bed in the mornings (or, as he put it, "getting erect in the mornings"). Because of this, he asked if one of us could stop by in the mornings to help him get up.

"At 7:30, preferably," he said.

"Well, I leave for work at 8:00," my mother said. "Would a little after 8:00 be all right, Jim?"

"Oh, fine, fine," he said. "That would be lovely. [Sentence blacked out because it involved my grandfather thanking my mother for offering to get him erect in the mornings.] I'm so indebted to you."

Flash forward to Monday morning, about 7:45. My mother and I are in the kitchen, getting ready for work (my mom) and whining about an achy back (me), when the phone rings. It is, of course, my grandfather, complaining about how no one was there to get him up, he had terrible troubles, etc etc.

"But grandpa, remember, you said my mother could come by at 8:00?" I said, even though I knew he wouldn't remember.

"Well, it has to be 7:00," he said. "7:15 at the latest."

"All right," I said.

Flash forward to this morning. My mother drags herself out of bed and down to my grandfather's house at 7:00, walks into the house and is greeted by my grandfather bellowing out, "WHO'S THAT? WHAT'S GOING ON?"

"Jim, it's Peg," my mother said. "It's 7:00 in the morning, you asked me to come help you up, remember?"

And then there was a long pause. "WHY THE HELL WOULD I WANT TO GET UP AT 7:00?"

To which my mother could only say, "I, well. I don't really know, but you said that 8:00 was too --"

"8:00! Yes, 8:00 is much better. MUCH better. That's when someone should come by."

At this point, of course, my grandfather had gotten himself up fine and was moving on around the house at his breakneck speed of approximately 3 feet a minute.

Ah, fun fun fun. My mother told me the story in detail this evening after we'd both gotten home from work. She finished the story, stopped laughing, and then stared off into the distance for a minute before saying, "I need a beer."

She totally did. So did I, except I hate beer. So instead I just had a bowl of Life cereal. It was pretty good.

~~

In happier news, the Mets are on FIYAH! Opening day was today, against the Evil Braves, Tom Glavine on the mound. Tom Glavine, like most Mets acquisitions, was this truly amazing player for years and years, but then he joined the Mets. As you may know, immediately after joining the Mets, any given baseball player, regardless of his past record of health and consistency, will:

(a) suffer an injury;
(b) fall into an inexplicable slump; or
(c) both.

I provide you with Mo Vaughn, Roberto Alomar, Roger Cedeno, and countless others as examples. Exception that proves the rule: Cliff Floyd, who came to the team with a chronic injury last year and still rocked the casbah. We love Cliff.

But tonight! Tonight they WON! And they won BIG! And guys they'd acquired did AMAZINGLY and Mike Piazza hit a home run and looked hot, which is all I really need. Mike Piazza is totally one of the guys who, if he showed up at my door, I would run off with him, no questions asked. The list includes: Colin Firth. JC Chasez. Joshua Jackson. There are others, of course.

Why Mike Piazza, you ask? Many reasons. He is the best hitting catcher in history! And he's so cute. And, a few years ago, a sportscaster ran into him in the history section of a local bookstore, where Mike was carrying out a pile of books because he's a history buff. He can read! And when all of the other baseball players said Field of Dreams, he named Bull Durham as his favorite movie, and one time, when the team was in Montreal, the team made the rookies get up and sing karaoke, and at the end, he got up himself and sang some Guns and Roses song. I would know the name of the song if I were a cooler person, but I am not. I am actually the kind of person who has spent the past two minutes going, "Is it 'Guns 'n Roses'? Or 'Guns and Roses'? And where do those question marks go in relation to the quotation marks?"

I just. I love him. Am very sad my Mets icon is not a Mike Piazza icon. Not that there's anything wrong with Joe McEwing! I do love Joe.

~~

And that is all.
fearlesstemp: (bucky)
Item the First: The Shower

Okay, here's the thing: I don't think I have great taste. It's not my thing, really; I'd like to be good at it, but in all honesty, I never know the proper thing to do, say, or wear in a given situation, and I rely heavily on other people to guide me (my mom and my friend Joanna, primarily). Because of this, I always feel really guilty and evil for gossiping about what I think is in poor taste – there's a chance I could and would do the same or similarly tacky things were I not surrounded by people saying, "No, Jess, you can't wear those shoes with that outfit." Maybe I do these things already, in spite of all the help! I don't know!!!

Sadly, this rarely stops me from making judgments about other people's taste (or lack thereof), occasionally sharing them in this journal.

All of this is a boring lead up to: I attended a baby shower for Kristen the Republican Bride this weekend.

The thing about showers, bridal or baby, is that they are by definition awful. They're terribly boring, requiring you to dress nice and give up hours of your life you'll never get back just to sit there and go "Ooooh. Aaaah," as another kitchen gadget/baby gadget is opened in front of you. But there are ways to make them less awful or more awful, and this shower? Was an exercise in the more awful, hands down.

a lengthy discussion of the shower, including my personal rules for making showers less awful )

Item the Second: Awkward Grandfather Interaction

Last night my grandfather came over for dinner. I can't remember how much I've talked about it in my LJ, but he's in declining health. He has been for the past few years, really, but especially since last August his mobility and mental state has been deteriorating, which has been stressful and hard to see.

But every so often there comes from it a gem, like last night. Every weekend we fix him a meal, usually dinner on Saturday or Sunday, and during the winter we'd just gone to his house with a plate of what we were eating or take out from one of his favorite restaurants. Since it's almost spring (technically it IS spring, but it sure doesn't feel like it lately), we decided to get him out of the house last night, and so he came to our place.

As we were sitting there at dinner, after he'd spent thirty seconds expectorating into one of his dinner napkins (there's nothing quite like dining with octogenarians with chronic post-nasal drip), he turned to us and said, in his most despairing Oh Poor Me voice (which he's most definitely justified in using at this point, considering his condition), "I hate to be a bother, but I need your assistance. You see, when I wake up in the morning, I – well, I have trouble getting erect. Later in the day it's fine, but in the morning, it's often a half hour struggle, and if someone could just stop by at about seven in the morning every day to help me get erect, I'd so appreciate it."

After he finished, there was a long pause during which my mother, father, and I exchanged looks and tried very, very hard not to laugh. Clearly my grandfather, being exposed to only the Eternal Word Television Network for the past decade or so, has missed the cultural bandwagon when it comes to English usage for the word "erect"; while back in The Day it may have been a run-of-the-mill of saying "to stand upright," nowadays, as I'm sure you all know, it means something else.

"Hmm," my mother said. "Yes. Well. We'll find a way to help you get up in the mornings, Jim."

"You see, once I get up, I'm fine, but at first – I have a really hard time getting erect."

"Right," I said.

"Yeah, we'll – we'll do something about that," my Dad said, and then tried to steer the conversation in another direction but my grandfather just would NOT let it go and went on for at least five minutes about his difficulty getting erect. I am not joking. He must have said the word fifty times. It was...an experience.

Item the Third: My Stupid Back

Last night, after bringing my grandfather home and helping him around, I took out the garbage, found the cat, and brought her inside. I leaned over to pick her up to give her a pill and oh dear GOD I saw stars. My back, which had been bothering me on and off for weeks and more so this past weekend, just exploded in pain and I almost passed out. Well, not really; what I did do was clutch poor Molly to my belly and lean against the counter, trying not to breathe. And then trying to breathe. And then deciding that I would give up chocolate for life if God would take the pain away.

Anyway, got back iced, took ibuprofen, went to bed and had a hard time sleeping, and woke up this morning feeling wretched again so I called in sick to work and made a desperate call to my doctor's office for an appointment today, which I got. I lurched around the house for hours, positive I had been terribly injured, and then decided to try my stretches again. After that, took a few ibuprofen and, magically, the pain? Just about disappeared. Not entirely, really, but for the most part? I felt FINE. And was faced with the prospect of an emergency doctor's appointment in two hours that I suddenly very much did not need.

Felt like crazy person going to said appointment! But I did, and the doctor was quite nice, going over my symptoms and telling me I Did the Right Thing, etc etc. She didn't even make fun of me when I referred to my back as being "ouchy" (it is a technical term). The result was the same old story: lower back muscle strain, don't lift heavy things, it's a slow process, blah blah blah. I do not like this whole back pain thing. It's annoying, and I feel like a pain in the ass for those around me. What am I going to do at work? Will have to be annoying temp with back problems who cannot lift things! They should fire me. I am being completely serious when I say I'm more trouble than I'm worth if I can't lift heavy things – one of my big tasks in the weeks to come is helping them prepare for this huge event in April. I have to put together 600 packets. This involves finding 600 copies of lots of things, including buttons, and carrying stacks/boxes/bags of 600 things, and putting them together, and if I can't do that what use am I to them?

Whatever. Happy thoughts: Between today and Good Friday, I have a three-day week! Woot!

And now it's almost dinner. Enough rambling from me.
fearlesstemp: (bucky)
All about the cut tags, because I'm crazy long-winded tonight.

Friday )

Saturday:

Was pretty much a nonevent. Nice day, though.

Sunday )

Monday )

And now, I sleep.
fearlesstemp: (jess)
Okay, seriously? Britney Spears's new single? Is awesome. I heard it in the car tonight and I can't get it out of my head, and I'm thisclose to driving to the nearest 24 Hour WalMart (even if, as Helen pointed out, they are evil!!!) to buy her CD because I want to hear it again. Toxic! It's so good.

That said: I heard the song while driving home from my first class of the term, which was scary and intimidating!! But it seems like it will be interesting, so I will probably keep the class, even if I feel like a total stupid loser sitting there. Today the professor did the First Day Getting To Know You Thing, and asked all of us to fill out a sheet of paper with the following information:

(1) Name
(2) Phone number
(3) E-mail addy
(4) Degree program
(5) Where we got our BA, and
(6) Why we're taking the course, and what we do when not in class -- jobs, etc.

Okay, so questions 1,2,3, and 5 were fine, but for (4) I had to write down "non-matriculated graduate student" which, as some of you may know, is basically a long way of writing "flake" and for (6), I had to say, "I've been considering returning to school full time, and so have been taking occasional graduate courses while doing temporary office work since graduating from college in May 2002" which is an even longer way of writing "flake." But, you know, must be honest! Cannot make up false history rivaling that of other classmates, like the woman who had been teaching feminist film theory at City College!

It was all easier for me to do since it was being written down, and not said aloud because, as I've said often, I am not good at public speaking. Or speaking to any group of people larger than four or so who I do not know extremely well. I passed forward my little piece of paper with my best Good Little Student Smile on, and waited for class to begin, only to watch the professor rifle through the papers for a minute and then turn to the person beside him.

"Your name?" he said, and the person gave it to him.

"Ah," he said. "I see you're Very Intellectual and Accomplished."

Actually, he said a lot more than that, in greater detail -- basically summarizing what was written down on the sheet, but I can't *remember* what was on that guy's sheet because I spent that moment riding out the wave of soul-crushing panic I felt at realizing that everyone in the class was going to hear about how lame I was! And, okay, I was overreacting, but that's what I *do* in these situations.

I spent the next ten minutes or so watching him go around the room and read out from everyone's little (6) section on their sheet, except for one or two people who he'd had in several other classes who just got a nod of recognition and a pass, and then he finally got to me. I sat there, trying to look confident and self-assured (as if I had developed in the past five minutes some version of what Bridget Jones would call inner poise).

He nodded at me, and I gave a dorky wave before saying, "Jessica MyLastName."

"Ah," he said, and pulled my sheet of paper out. "Jessica MyLastName...okay, you put your e-mail address down, good, good...non-matriculated -- hmmm...huh."

And then he furrowed his brow, finished reading, and flipped the paper over! That was it! Moved onto the next person!

I sat there kind of stunned and, initially, relieved, but then quickly horrified because! Apparently I am so lame that he, like, wanted to spare me the embarrassment of sharing my lameness with the class! And then I felt kind of indignant about it, wanted to jump up and say something like, "I'll have you know I was Temp of the Month, pal!" and challenge him to a collating contest or something.

The rest of the class was decent, though I did have another moment of soul-crushing ohmygoodnessIdon'tbelong panic when the person sitting across from me raised his hand halfway through my professor's discussion of the first week's reading and said, "Now, when you say 'deconstruct' do you mean it in the [lots of long multi-syllabic words]."

I almost heard the whoosh of the concepts flying over my head. The only thing that saved me was that I wasn't alone, and my professor turned to the guy and said, "I'm lost," when he finished speaking. After a brief foray into structuralism, the two of them worked out what the other one had been meaning, and while I was left in the academic dust, I felt not quite so awful about it as I had initially.

In any case, the episode served to bring to the forefront the That Guy of the class. You know That Guy? The guy who's done all sorts of esoteric research on obscure French philosophers so that when the professor's lecturing, he'll pipe in with a bizarre, but not completely off-topic question that casually demonstrates his brilliance? Now, see, That Guy is not being a jerk about it; if he were being a jerk about it, trying to show off, we would call him That Arrogant Jerk, or something else mildly mean. That Guy honestly doesn't know better! He thinks we're all on the same page when he lays out these questions when, actually, most of us are chapters behind him, or wishing we had a dictionary to pull out so that we can figure out what he's saying!

Ah, to be effortlessly brilliant. I spend so much energy trying to seem mildly engaged. Right now I think I'm going to go spend a few hours being totally asleep.
fearlesstemp: (bucky)
I give up. The mess wins.

See, one of the problems of being a twenty-something living with one's parents, besides the whole feeling lame about it thing, is that it's kind of hard to stuff twenty-odd years of stuff into a 10x10 foot room. Or, at least, it is for me, because I cannot throw out/get rid of:

-books,
-videotapes,
-anything that was a gift, or
-any kind of card/letter/note

Which is pretty much everything in my room! And so I end up making a few passes around my room with a cheap green garbage bag (this one already has a hole in it! I don't know how, but it does!), trying to get myself to throw stuff away and failing miserably. Because! I *need* that scrap of yellow legal pad paper with my ESL tutee's e-mail address on it! I mean, sure, I haven't talked to the woman since our last tutoring session when I was in college, when I tried to hug her and scared the daylights of her, but someday I may find myself in China and need a friend! Or maybe I'll just want to say hi! And come on, I can't get rid of that other scrap of paper with Michael Rabinowitz's name, phone number, and e-mail address! Even though I have no idea who Michael Rabinowitz is. Someday I may remember and want to e-mail Mike and not have the contact information! That would be a tragedy.

This hoarding of pointless stuff is clearly due to several things, including:

-my inherent laziness,
-my father's bad example,
-my huge sentimental streak, and
-one of the Mikes I went to Europe with.

When I was sixteen, I spent three weeks in Great Britain as part of this student ambassador trip thing. It was very fun and educational and all that good stuff, and on the trip there were three Mikes -- one who was short and funny and younger than me, another who I can't remember well, and the third, who was quiet and kind of geeky but nice (none of whom are Michael Rabinowitz, that I know). Anyway, after we came home and went our separate ways (the people who went on the trip were from two areas of New York State -- both my area, and another area a few hours away), some of the more energetic of the group attempted to keep in touch by sending these generic form letters to everyone, or cards with little generic notes. Late in the year, I received a letter that was, like, two pages of looseleaf, hand-written, from quiet and kind of geeky but nice Mike. TWO PAGES! HANDWRITTEN!

And I told myself he must have done that for all of the people on the trip (all thirty of us!), that he couldn't have possibly sent one just to ME, because I was, well, ME, and why would a boy want to send ME a special letter?

I put it away and looked at it every so often but just accepted that explanation, and then I moved, and life went on until, for whatever reason, I found myself lying in bed one night thinking about my trip to England and I REALIZED -- quiet and kind of geeky but nice Mike HAD PROBABLY LIKED ME! And I totally blew him off!! And I probably hurt his feelings! Because I was too insecure to even CONSIDER that a boy could have liked me and so I never ANSWERED, and this CLUELESSNESS-BORNE CRUELTY was totally why my love life has always been so uneventful! It was KARMA, not my history of bad hair!

I jumped out of bed and spent the rest of the night tearing my room apart, and all of my boxes in the basement, looking for the letter (because I couldn't remember anything about it, and suddenly needed to read it over with this possibility in mind), but could not find it, and realized I must have thrown it out when we moved, either accidentally or on purpose, and oh, still I'm upset over this. Still!

This is why I can never throw anything out, ever again!

Anyway. The problem with this method is that my room becomes creepily messy, between the scraps of paper everywhere and my complex clothes storage method, which involves lots of piles of stuff ending up on my bed and dresser. Reading this, you could assume that I'm just too lazy to organize stuff and put it in its proper place in the closet or the dresser and, well, you'd be right.

I sometimes wonder how much damage Mary Poppins has done to the messy among us because still, some part of me wishes -- and even kind of believes, if I want it enough -- that if I sing the right jaunty tune, my stuff will magically organize itself with no actual moving or effort from me at all. It could happen! Right?

To quote the Mets Fan Motto: You Gotta Believe.

I meant to write up stuff about Christmas, and this Kennedy miniseries I was absorbed in this afternoon (why am I so obsessed with the Kennedys? Why? Why can't I get over this?), but I'm starting to consider buying infomercial products advertised on the TV I've left running while I write this, which means it's time for me to go to bed.
fearlesstemp: (bucky)
My brother came home from school tonight, which meant Sloppy Joes for dinner, his favorite meal. I loathe sloppy joes and instead decided to make my specialty -- ziti noodles, butter, and broccoli. I know! Such a chef! So I was standing there at the stove, stirring my noodles, waiting for the pot with the broccoli in it to come to a second boil, talking to my Dad who was standing beside me stirring the sloppy joe stuff, when! Out of nowhere!

The burner beneath the broccoli BURST INTO FLAMES! Flames! Big, yellow flames!

In the next few minutes, we all showcased how attentive we were during fire safety when:

-My father tried to blow it out;
-My mother shrilly screamed "Throw water on it! Water! WATER!";
-My brother took a tiny top to a pan and tried to shove it on top of it;
-And I ran around the kitchen throwing open cabinets screeching, "Baking powder! We need baking powder! BAKING POWDER!"

Of course, what we really needed was baking SODA, which I did find eventually, before the house was consumed by flames. The fire was effectively put out by yours truly (and no, I'm not too shy to take the credit), to my parents' amazement.

They asked, "You don't use water?"

And I stood there with the box of baking soda in one hand, going, "Grease fire! You use baking soda on a grease fire! And hey, why was there a grease fire?"

My father looked sheepish. "I may have spilled something on there before and, uh. Forgotten to get it up."

"Jimmy!" my mother scolded, and swatted him on the shoulder.

"What did you spill?" my brother asked.

"Kerosene?" I offered.

We never did find out.

I had to microwave my broccoli then, and it wasn't as good, but I was too afraid to try the stove again. Also enjoyable was how the smoke detector, which goes off every time we try to toast something more than lightly, did not respond AT ALL when there were flames shooting at the ceiling. That was nice.
fearlesstemp: (working girl)
Since my mother has started going to the gym after work (unlike her lazy, slothful daughter), I'm usually the first one home most nights when I don't have to go out after work. So when I drove up tonight and saw the garage door wide open, I was surprised and wondered who beat me home.

And then I saw there were no cars in the garage or the driveway.

Now, any sane person would assume that the last person to leave the house (my notoriously forgetful father) had simply forgotten to close the door on his way to work this morning. I am not any sane person. I am, instead, a neurotic girl who spent too many hours of her formative years watching shows like Rescue 911 and America's Most Wanted (these were seriously my favorite shows between the ages of, like, seven and eleven. Until I discovered Quantum Leap, to put it in other terms). Naturally, the only conclusion I could draw was that crazy murderers were hiding in my house, waiting to pounce on me.

And so I called my father on his private line at work.

Dad: (Annoyed, his general state at work) Yello!

Me: Dad? It's Jess. (I still signify it's me instead of Jimmy even though we stopped sounding alike oh, ten or twelve years ago.)

Dad: What, Jess.

Me: Did you shut the garage door when you left?

Dad: What?

Me: Did you shut the garage door when you left? Because it's open now and I don't know if I should go in, and I wouldn't worry except for the whole garage robbers incident and --

Cell Phone: BEEP. (Digital Display: Signal Faded, Call Lost)

Exactly how all horror movies start! The truth is, a quirk of my cell phone plan is how I get no reception at my house. It's very annoying.

Naturally I called back several times, only to get cut off every time, until I got SO FRUSTRATED that I decided to go into the house to use the land line. Yes! My cell phone related frustration was greater than my fear! It's good to know something trumps that, but still, once I got into the house and onto the phone, part of me was all, "Okay, so how was this a good plan?"

I called my father again.

Dad: Yes Jess.

Me: I'm in the house.

Dad: You're in the house?

Me: Yes, I'm in the house. Should I not have come in? I probably shouldn't have come in. Why did I come in?

Dad: Well, you're in there now.

Me: Right.

Dad: [Silence.]

Me: So, uh, what should I do?

So we did a walk through of the house, found no insane robbers, and then my father, who had to go to a meeting after work and wouldn't be home for another couple of hours, told me I should either call the police (!!) or go visit my aunt who lives five minutes away if I was nervous. These were good plans, and I totally would have taken one of them, except -- well, except I really had to pee. See, when I get nervous? I have to pee. It's an awful thing. And the thing was -- if you're going to use the bathroom in a creepy place, you've kind of committed to that creepy place. It seems strange to bust out of someplace like a bat out of hell and stop in the loo on the way.

Naturally, it is far more normal to hang up with your father, stand by the bathroom, and say, in the most booming of voices your shaky nerves can muster, "Okay! So if there are any burglars in here or anything, I'm going to go --well, I'm going to go into this room here, and, well, I will stay there at LEAST a few minutes, and if you want to get out, you can go! And get away! I won't look! I won't have seen you! And, you know, I have a phone -- no, TWO phones in here -- so don't think of trying something. Okay? Okay. And my father is going to be home VERY SOON! Okay."

And then I went into the bathroom, took care of business, and promptly realized that I didn't want to leave. Because what if there was a scary burglar out there? I had no weapons except my cordless phone and, well, a bottle of Proactive Toner! Which I tried out a couple of times and provided enough squirty action to operate as makeshift Mace.

I called for backup in the form of my bud Anna, over the phone who, after knowing me for so long, didn't miss a beat and when I called and said, "So I'm in the bathroom now, and I'm afraid there's someone out there, and logically I *know* there's not, but I'm worried, and I've got some Toner here in my hand but if you could just stay on the phone with me while I go out there, that would be great," she said, "No problem."

Needless to say, there were no scary burglars in the hall. Instead, there was just Molly, flopped over on her back with her paws in the air in Designated Cute Kitty Pose #13, designed to get some attention and/or milk.

I explained the whole situation to Anna on my way downstairs, including the one thing in the house that seemed odd -- the jar of peanut butter in the middle of the kitchen floor.

"Do you think there are burglars who just come in and misplace household items?" Anna considered.

"It would explain a lot," I said.

We both decided it was definitely just my Dad being forgetful, which makes sense since he's the guy who's gone through two teakettles just this year, I think, by forgetting to turn off the burner on his way out in the morning, so that I return home to them sitting blackened on the stove. We're just lucky there hasn't been a three-alarm blaze. He's always running late and in a rush in the mornings.

Anna had to go because she had to call her Dreamy German Boyfriend, and so I called the next person on my list of People I Like To Annoy When I'm Being Crazy: Annie. Annie gave me some great advice.

"I think you should turn on the TV," she said. "That would make me feel better. Because even though it would totally drown out the sound of any approaching bad guys were there any actual bad guys, putting you in greater danger, I'd rather have the distraction and not know until the last minute."

"Good thinking," I said, and went into the living room and put on my Firefly DVDs.

Annie had to go eat dinner, and just when I was going to hit the next peron on my People I Like To Annoy When I'm Being Crazy list, Joanna, the phone rang and it was Anna calling back to check on my status. We chatted for a bit and were just discussing the merits of popcorn when lo! My wayward father returned, all apologetic for the whole situation, saying it was just his forgetfulness again.

"We should develop a system," I said.

Anna suggested a list by the door and I was about to pass that along when my father said, "I already have a system for the water."

"The water?"

"The teakettle. To remember to shut it off. I use the peanut butter."

"The peanut butter?" I was already laughing at this point.

"Yeah, I put it in the middle of the floor, and then when I'm on my way out, I see it, and remember to check the stove."

And so the Mystery of the Wayward Peanut Butter was solved, there were no scary burglars, and we all lived happily ever after.
fearlesstemp: (lionel)
So the last few days my eyebrows have veered into dangerous Manbrow territory, which in turn causes me to become neurotic and convinced I look like John Belushi (which, by the end of the day today, I think was a possibility), all because of my cat Molly. The connection isn't initially clear, but trust me, this is all her fault. The other day I was being a cuddly catowner, scratching her behind the ear, when I discovered a big gross tick there! Big! And gross! I had to use the tweezers from my makeup bag to get rid of said tick, and after that the pair of tweezers was dead to me, or at least to my eyebrows, leaving me with no means of maintaining them and so my eyebrows grew to Manbrow proportions. I have gone to the store several times since The Tick Incident, but every time I would wander around the Beauty section thinking, "I know there was something I wanted here..." and leaving with something stupid, like new hair product or mascara, no tweezers.

But tonight! Tonight I finally remembered that I needed to buy new tweezers, and said remembering happened just before I left the house to pick up some stuff at the store for my parents, so I got tweezers! And no longer have Manbrows. But! While I was at the store!

what's more interesting than the grocery store? a lot! but watch me blather on regardless )
fearlesstemp: (lionel)
Wednesday morning I got in my car and noticed that there was crap all over the floor of the front seat. Correction: I noticed that there was different crap than usual on the floor on my front seat. But since I'm a huge slob, I didn't think much of it (also I was running late), so I just took off the emergency brake and started rolling down the driveway into the street.

"Hmm," I thought to myself while I turned around. "My glove compartment's open. That's odd. I know I didn't go in there last night."

I shut it and shifted into first.

"Hm," I thought a few moments later. "I could have sworn that Diet Pepsi Twist can was in the cupholder last night. But maybe I finished it and put it on the floor ,where all of my empty cans go to die – HOLY CRAP THAT'S NOT EMPTY."

I swerved to a stop at the stop sign at the end of my street and retrieved the can and stared mournfully at the blobs of Diet Pepsi seeping into the carpet. I cared for approximately 2.3 seconds and then shifted into first again and got on the road.

"Hm," I thought as I blew down the main road by my neighborhood. "What is that whistling noise? That's odd. What could it – my door isn't shut! My passenger door isn't shut all the way! No one has used that passenger door in days! SOMEONE BROKE INTO MY CAR!"

!!!

!!

!!!!

At this point I was blowing down the main road at like 45 mph and couldn't easily pull over or anything, so I just did a quick assessment and didn't see anything missing (there was literally nothing of value in my car, unless you value empty lip gloss containers and half-full cans of Diet Pepsi). But it FREAKED ME OUT, man! I called the 'rents and told them so they could check their cars, and then proceeded to go about my day, la de dah.

Flash forward to last night: My mother and I stayed up late gossiping about various people we knew until about 1AM, at which point we retired to our respective bedrooms and I settled in to watch my tape of The OC. And then I heard the garage door open.

!!

!!!

!!!!

family wackiness, etc, cut because this got really long )

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