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fearlesstemp) wrote2001-05-25 12:30 am
fearlesstemp) wrote2001-05-25 12:30 am
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Am angry
at self! Dammit. Overcommitted myself tomorrow and now I have to do two things I don't want to do at all. Dammitdammitdammit. Have to skip out of work early (which makes me feel bad and immoral, forcing me to realize that yes, I do have a work ethic buried somewhere in me) to go on a hike with a bunch of kids for like three hours. I am not the hiking kind. And I have to drive to remote hiking spot. Which I don't want to do. President of club wouldn't let me off the hook, despite all my attempts to be freed up, the fact that I was an hour late for work tonight because of club meeting, and the fact that she has another driver AND more than enough chaperones. Dammit! I can't just cancel though because (as usual) there would be guilt.
Am angry. Because it's All! My! Fault!
Can't say no. It's an issue, and must be dealt with. Pronto. Fear I will have bad day because I will resent having to do what I have to do, which basically kills any fun potential. Must create better mood despite bitterness! Must show shining, friendly, happy-to-be-hiking face to children! Must!
Off to watch a flick.
Am angry. Because it's All! My! Fault!
Can't say no. It's an issue, and must be dealt with. Pronto. Fear I will have bad day because I will resent having to do what I have to do, which basically kills any fun potential. Must create better mood despite bitterness! Must show shining, friendly, happy-to-be-hiking face to children! Must!
Off to watch a flick.