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[fearlesstemp]

What to do, what to do. With my life, with my wardrobe, with my cell phone plan. I just don't KNOW. I'm not good at this decision-making stuff. But occasionally decisions have to be made, like right now. Or maybe later. By tomorrow at the very latest.

I have made one decision: I am going to buy The Forsyte Saga, and justify it as a late Christmas present. Because I, well, really want it! And that's enough for me.

Anyway, so the thing is, I'm taking this lame history grad class, and I don't really like it, and am tempted to drop it, since it's mostly meaningless and I'm not even sure if I want to get my masters in history or not. I don't know what to do! At all! I have no skills! And I feel like if I end up in another long-term soul-sucking temp job I'm going to flip out, so I've decided I need to formulate a life plan, or something. I feel like I would be able to deal with the soul-sucking temp jobs better if I had a goal. And I mean an actual goal, not, like, "Win the Lottery!" (which has been my goal so far).

The problem is that every day I want to do something different. Yesterday I had decided I wanted to be a writer! Like, a journalist or magazine writer! And I was going to go back to school for Communications, or something! And gain skills and get a good job!

And then this morning I woke up and decided I wanted to be a teacher! History, or maybe English! I wanted to enrich young minds and give them a complex view of the past and/or great literature.

And then I have my occasional altruistic kicks, where I want to be a social worker or something, and help kids who need it.

What would be awesome would be if I could be like Charles Gunn on Angel, only without the possible evilness, and go into a strange room and meet with some member of the animal kingdom (I lack the nerve to deal with a big cat; maybe something a bit less scary, like a penguin, or a donkey) who can bestow upon me all of the knowledge/skills/experiences necessary for me to be capable at all three professions, and then I could just hop from one job to another.

But, sadly, that technology does not exist outside of the Whedonverse, and so I have to actually make a decision. Eventually. Preferably soon.

In other news: They really, really need to stop showing that Sprint commercial with the green multi-eyed Bogeyman in the closet. Because it FREAKS ME OUT! Seriously! I have to hide my eyes every time it comes on, and I don't know why! At all! I just tried to describe why it disturbs me, but in describing it, I was so disturbed, I had to cut myself off and delete the description.

In closing: I have nothing to wear tomorrow!! All I have are skirts, and my latest thing is that I have some bizarre newfound strength in my fingers, and I've put giant holes in the last two pairs of stockings I've tried to put on, which is frustrating. I cannot find any of my other pairs, and the only tights I can find are brown, which is frustrating because I have, like, one brown outfit, half of which is currently dirty.

I know! Such problems! I suppose the theme of this whole LJ entry is Jess Needs to Grow Up and Be More Careful With Her Wardrobe. Or, possibly, Reification. One or the other.

Comments

[marej.livejournal.com]

the donkey of power. i mean, the donkey. or a penguin of power.

I'm *crying* Jess, I hope you're happy. Tears down my face, and i can't stop shaking with laughter. Write a friggin' book, aleardy.

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[fearlesstemp.livejournal.com]

the donkey of power. i mean, the donkey. or a penguin of power.


A penguin of power and WISDOM! :)

[nikisublime.livejournal.com]

no matter what you do, you can always be a writer. be a teacher and a writer! be everything. i had the same issues with this. i chose journalism because i would get to write about everything. in all honesty, i think i just want to be an actress. ah well. my point is, you can always be a writer. it's a nice job. special. i mean, you can't say "no matter what you do, you can always be a cardiothoracic surgeon," because yknow, if we ALL knew how to do that, then.... then.... wow, that'd be pretty weird.

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[fearlesstemp.livejournal.com]

you can always be a writer. it's a nice job. special. i mean, you can't say "no matter what you do, you can always be a cardiothoracic surgeon," because yknow, if we ALL knew how to do that, then.... then.... wow, that'd be pretty weird.

LOL! And, also, very true. I know, I really should just chill and pick an actuall profession with a skill and decent wages -- I think part of me still can't let go of the idea that someday someone will pay me just to exist. Ah, the dream!

[remainthesame.livejournal.com]

penguin power! hee! I adore you.

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[fearlesstemp.livejournal.com]

penguin power! hee!

Penguin power! And also:

I adore you.

Right back atcha. :)

I love you, you are so funny...

[foxyfrau.livejournal.com]

I know exactly what you are thinking, because I have gone through all this, still am going through all this. I say, just try something, anything, it doesn't have to be your ultimate purpose in life. And never stop writing.

And I say boo to life plans. Think of a certain someone we know who made a life plan...although that is a little extreme. Maybe some kind of plan is ok. But not a grand life plan.

Of course, I am not TELLING you to do any of this, because you are my sister in passive agressiveness, and so I would never tell you to do anything.

We could always revert to our fall back plan of running the world. Whaddaya think?

Re: I love you, you are so funny...

[fearlesstemp.livejournal.com]

Anna! You're the best. We should totally just go back to our original plan of running the world. I mean, we could sketch out the life plans of other people then, instead of our own -- and we have no problem doing that, do we? Ever?

I don't think so! :)

Also: I cracked up at your whole "Not that I'm TELLING you what to do" thing because, seriously? You do know me so well, my Sistah in Passive Aggressiveness!